Welcome back to another week of State of the Weight Wednesday!
State of the Weight Wednesday is a weekly healthy living series about making small changes you can live with.
That’s what my scale read this morning. 193.5. Half a pound higher than I was the day I found out I was pregnant with Joshua over 5 years ago.
I’m also wearing a size 14 jeans. I’m down TWO SIZES since April.
Even though I’m shrinking, some clothes are a challenge right now. My boobs are enormous because of breastfeeding. Or they feel enormous to me, probably because I’m the one carrying them around.
I went shopping with my best friend Friday afternoon and had a hard time finding a dress. I wanted something new to wear to the We Still Blog Awards at Type A. If I’m going to be up in front of people, I want to feel good in what I’m wearing. I’ll need all the confidence I can get.
Because of the size difference between my boobs and the rest of me, dresses are proving to be difficult, and I really don’t WANT to buy a ton of things because the entire goal is not to fit in them for very long.
But shopping and knowing that I can probably walk into a store and buy something off a rack, even if it’s just a shirt? There’s something sort of fun about that.
It’s rewarding to be able to see that I’m getting smaller.
Do I need to do a crazy amount of toning, especially on my stomach and arms? Yes. Oh god, yes.
Do I have a long way to go? Maybe. The point of all of this is to get to a place where I’m happy with me, and right now? I’m pretty freaking happy with myself if for no other reason than I’ve stuck with this. (Eh, maybe not happy with the double chin I’ve always had, though.)
I wish I had a picture from when I started all of this to be able to compare, but in April I really didn’t want my picture taken at all. Even without a photo to put beside this one, I can see the results even if no one else can see them.
I KNOW that my body is different now than it was then. I don’t feel like I need to hide it in yoga pants and baggy shirts. I want to wear bright colors and patterns. I found an amazing curve-hugging dress that makes me feel…sexy. And that’s not a way I’m used to feeling.
I kind of like it.
I really didn’t think this week had gone well for me. I watched what I ate, stayed as active as I could, and I still felt heavy. Bloated. Sort of weighed down. It’s weird.
I still sort of feel bloated. I think I blame the Diet Sierra Mist Cranberry Splash. SO, SO GOOD! But so, so carbonated.
But bloat be damned, I lost another pound last week and now I’m even closer to my 31 pound goal. (Then it’ll be time to reassess. And also maybe treat myself to something nice.)
Weekly Goal: Be as good as I can. I’m going to enjoy myself at Type A this weekend.
Weight Goal: 31 pounds total. ALMOST THERE.
If you’re working toward a healthier life, what were your successes and setbacks this week?