I’m a really bad mom today.
Bad not in the sense that I let him watch too much television (I do.) or eat too much junk food (I do.).
Bad in the sense that my anger is getting the best of me. My frustration is taking over. My words are being used too harshly.
Today is really awful.
Hard.
And here I sit, alone, feeling sorry for me and for that little boy who deserves a mother who doesn’t get angry like this. Who doesn’t get frustrated like this. Who should be able to get over herself. Who shouldn’t act so childishly.
Today I’ve shouted. I’ve screamed. I’ve been angry. I slammed a door. I threw a tray.
I have not been a good role model and I know his little eyes are watching.
Tomorrow, I’ll be better.
Mara
Saturday 23rd of July 2011
I once heard a quote that went something like this: "There is no one way to be a perfect mom, but a million ways to be a good one." It helps me.
Katie
Friday 22nd of July 2011
sigh. I get this.
hugs.
Rocky Mountain Mama
Tuesday 19th of July 2011
You are a good mom for being able to admit this. Being a mother is not easy and I often find myself in the same situation you just posted about. I don't like it, but sometimes, it's just really hard and frustrating. And toddlers? They have the will of a mule. I swear! You are an awesome mama! :)
Krista
Tuesday 19th of July 2011
You and me both! I was that exact same Mom yesterday and the day before. The shouting, screaming, tears, and throwing of objects. Here's hoping that today goes better for all of us! And hang in there, it happens to the best of us!
Julie
Monday 18th of July 2011
I can identify with your day... often. Hugs to you and thank you for sharing because it helps to know I'm not the only one who has these days. And that it doesn't make you or me a bad mom. It's just one of those days.