Loss and grief are colossal mind games. That’s the nicest way to put that and certainly not the phrase in my head right now when trying to describe just where my head has been for the past week or two. I consider myself a pretty intellectual, rational person, so I’ve been kind of caught off…
heartbroken
Where I find myself asking “why me?”
I’ve been chewing on this post and tiptoe-ing around the taboo since announcing this pregnancy for fear of offending or ostracizing or something to someone. Or myself from the rest of the universe. But I can’t NOT write this. I’ve had over a month for this pregnancy to sink in and I’m still not sure…
Peanut butter and jelly
It’s hard to go to work and know that you’re doing something good when you have to leave your heart somewhere else first. My summer’s over. My time of only being a mom and wife is over. It was short-lived. It always is. I took Joshua to daycare this morning for the first time this…
Heavy sighs
That’s pretty much all I’ve got. Just lots and lots of heavy sighs. This week has been just not great. In fact, it’s been a series of punches to my guts. And there’s still tomorrow to go before it’s “over.” And 10 more days after that. So I’m left here with so little TO say…
Mewed up to my heaviness
There is so much I want to say here. So much I want to just pour on this page and out of my heart. So many tears that are in my throat and stuck right behind my eyes. Tears that won’t come. Tonight my mind is full. Bursting with thoughts, mostly negative. Many sad. My…