Okay, so I’m on this fitness quest or whatever, right? Right.
And when I lose 10 total pounds, I’m going to buy myself a new bra, right? Right.
I’ve been bra shopping online for two full weeks now. I’ve measured myself and re-measured myself to make sure I’ve got the size right. I’ve researched fit and function and brands. I’ve read reviews. I’ve looked at pictures.
I want a bra that won’t break the bank and will keep my jublees from jubbling and maybe isn’t ugly.
For the love of the sweet, tiny baby Jesus and his standard size counterpart, I cannot bring myself to click “buy” on a $70 sweat catcher even if it promises my boobs won’t bounce a bit while on the elliptical.
Which brings me to an even bigger rant entirely.
Can we talk candidly about the insane price of some workout apparel and how it is ALL targeted to the already fit? All of it. Because that’s what I’ve found in my bra search. Every single piece seems marketed toward those who already look great and are in shape.
And the problem I have with that is this:
When I feel like I look good, I am more confident. I can conquer the entire Universe when I feel confident.
But I’m “fat” and the world tells me I should hide myself in a muumuu.
When I’m dressing in a sorority function t-shirt from nearly a decade ago, with paint stains on the front and holes in the armpits, and yoga pants that are 5 years old, and a bra that is too small, or two at the same time, it’s damn near impossible to feel even kind of confident.
Sure, workout apparel for plus-sized women exists. But most of it starts at double the price of its regular-sized counterparts or is so greatly over-sized we might as well just wear a tent. And they’re waterproof, so that sweat should just roll on off, right?
I can’t imagine that the cost is that much greater to produce a piece of fitness apparel for the full-figured. Which leads me to the only plausible answer as to why workout clothes in my size (which in reality isn’t even plus-sized in many places) cost so much and/or are extremely rare.
Our desire to look good and feel good is preyed upon. If we want to wear clothes that make us feel good, we better have the purses to pay up.
And in light of the discussion surrounding a certain heavily-scented store with scantily-clad models, I know this is true.
It kind of makes me rage-y.
Why is it so hard to believe that ALL people of ALL sizes deserve to look and feel their best at ALL times?
Why do companies price their products out of reach of normal people?
Big girls should get to wear cute workout apparel that doesn’t cost a fortune too, y’all.
I know there are brands out there who have plus-sized versions of their workout lines available. Online. Never in stores. Sure, they’ll sell us their products, but they don’t want us to walk into the store and try them on first. If we want their apparel, we better be prepared to hole up in the confines of our homes and wait for it to arrive on our doorstep via UPS.
Is this just a silly thing I’m thinking about? Maybe. But every time I walk past a mirror in the gym, I can’t help but think about it. I can’t help but think that I look frumpy. I can’t help but want to hide in a corner and hope no one actually sees me. I can’t help wanting to just be invisible.
Sure, I’m trying to fix it. But in the meantime, you know?
Maybe it’s completely silly to want to look good while working out when the point of working out for a lot of people is to look good. But it’s kind of a chicken-egg thing, isn’t it?
When we look good we feel good. When we feel good our workouts are more productive. When our workouts are more productive we will end up looking good. So then we’ll feel good.
What’s wrong with wanting to feel our best while we’re trying to be our best?