There was a point in time when I craved time in my own house without the husband and child around.
I craved peace and quiet and freedom to do nothing.
But when I get that freedom, I find that I’m sorely lacking in ways to adequately spend that time. So I do things like schedule dentist appointments and run errands to the post office and the butcher’s shop.
Yes, I’m serious.
The dentist’s office? Not my idea of a great time. Especially since my last cleaning was in September. Of 2008.
(Somewhere, some of you just gasped and got all pearl-clutchy. It’s okay. Me too.)
In short? I have “chalky enamel” and “soft spots” and “cavities.”
So now I have to have fillings done and use a special toothpaste and we talked treatment plans and OMG. I hate dental work to the point that I want to just be knocked out and get implants (
and lipo if he’s capable…).
I’m supposed to stay away from carbonated drinks, sweets, chips, and anything with fermentable sugars. Which is pretty much EVERYTHING.
Except wine is okay.
(The hygienist is my bestie’s mom and we all like to share a glass or three of pinot grigio on occasion. But not while she has sharp pointy things near my mouth.)
Getting to do a whole lot of reading into the fictional lives of Kalle Blomqvist and Lisbeth Salander was nice. And if wine in the middle of the day were more acceptable, that would’ve been nice, too. Because OUCH. My teeth are all hurt-y.
But the teeth hurt-y wasn’t the worst part of my day.
The worst part was being without my best pal.
I feel all lost and out of sorts without hearing his little toddler voice asking me to do things for him. Or speaking toddler-ese to his trains. Or scolding the dog for some imaginary crime she’s perpetrated on him.
My arms feel empty without him to cuddle.
I miss every single piece of him when I’m home and he’s not.
Even the stinky parts and the whiny parts and the cranky parts.
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