Cracks in the armor

As you can see, you are definitely not the only one nor are you alone. The momster position is the hardest job to fill. The expectations are high, the demands are extreme, the activities are challenging and gasoline(energy) is costly. I have a 10 yr old on the autism spectrum, a 6 yr old just diagnosed with fructose intolerance and a lovely boy/girl set that are just 2 yrs now. Bleek am I ever tired! There are 3 adults in the house to keep things going and we are all exhausted and things never run smoothly. One of the keys is to remain optimistic that it will not always be this way and some day we will become rested. I used to want to keep the kids home til kindergarten but now i'm like "thank gawd they will be old enough for prek next fall! For me a break out of the house is difficult because of physical pain and limitations but also money is thin. Me time is me in my bedroom hanging out on here or crocheting, drawing, sewing etc. Also, I like to catch a few shows on tv with a mike's hard liquor sometimes after the kids go to bed. My hubster and I try to go out to eat for 2 hours once a month. Another key thing is..it's ok to have a messy house. Nap when they nap or soak in the tub, whatever..paint your toe nails, shave your legs. Do something for yourself a couple times a week in the home without your child to interrupt.

I had a lot of those days (way, way more than I'd care to admit) the first few months of DD's life...it's getting easier. Hang in there!

I would have said the same thing yesterday. Today is better. So today I can comment in a supportive way saying YES it's a bad day (and could be more), YES it's normal, YES sleep deprivation is a real and effective way to torture someone.

She will sleep through the night. Someday. I promise. Until then, don't be afraid to ask for help, and know that we're hanging out here in blogworld and twitter to remind you that really and truly, you rock.

I hope tomorrow is better. Thinking about you.

Being a stay at home mom is the hardest thing! It is exhausting, and you never get a break. Take time for YOU once a week, go get a manicure, or pedicure, or Starbucks , by yourself...it is essential. Please, don't be so hard on yourself... You know what? The fear sometimes is more crippling than anything... Take each day moment by moment.. If I lived closer, I would take your kiddos for a few hours every week so you could fill up YOUR tank. You are not just a great mom, but you are so much more... Those feeling of not being good enough? Take one look at those kiddos.. You are their world,,, YOU made them!! HOLY moly girl..you are not only good enough? YOU f***ing ROCK! You can't be everything to everyone... You will suffer, and so will everyone else...pick 2...pick 2 things and then give yourself a break on the rest.. I know I'm a total stranger, but I've been following you for awhile... And I think you are awesome... Hugs from another mom, who has learned to see fear for what it is... False. Evidence Appearing Real.... You ARE more than enough ...

you're more than enough and you're not letting anyone down. time to tell the husband you need a little break. have him get up with the kids and sleep in, then go and get yourself a pedicure and a massage.