Thwarted. Again.

I packed my gym bag this morning so that I could go straight there after work and do some time on the elliptical. And then I hear that all afternoon activities at the school are canceled because storms are rolling in that may bring tornadoes with them. In February. And they are slated to begin in about an hour.

(Seriously, are we having a weatherpocalypse right now? WTF is happening with this? It’s 78 degrees outside and I’ve got the air conditioning on. IN FEBRUARY.)

What does this mean for me?  I’m not going to the gym today.

Why?

Because as much as I hate driving in ice, I pretty much hate driving in rain and torrential downpours worse. And if there’s even the slightest chance that I would have to do that sort of driving with my child in the car? Yeah. I’ll pass. Because I know what *I* am doing in *MY* car, but I do not know what other drivers are doing in theirs.

What this leads me to think about is whether or not I’m copping-out on getting healthy. On whether or not I’m making excuses for myself so that I won’t have to go to the gym and exercise if there’s a slightly reasonable reason for me not to go.

Truthfully, I don’t know the answer.

Am I making excuses? I love working out now that I’ve done it, but the motivation it takes to get me there is often lacking. There’s always something else I HAVE to do. So even though I love doing THIS, when do I do this instead of the things I’m responsible for doing?

Odd point of the day?

Our topic of discussion in my junior classes today was “Personal desires versus group obligations” in preparation for reading Ethan Frome. The second point of our discussion in preparation for this novel? “How much control do we have over the choices we make?”

Weird, right?

My desire? Go to the gym. My obligations? Grade a stack of essays and make sure my son gets home safely.

How much control do we have over our choices? I have no idea. Truthfully.

I think I’m stuck in a paradox.

What do y’all think?