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I’m contemplating filling up this entire blog post with Zzzzzzz’s because that is how tired I am today. And I am not entirely sure why.  I cannot keep my eyes open.

This working and momming and instructing and wifing and balancing is hard work.  Tiring work. Grueling work. And let’s not forget that it’s a million and fifteen degrees here and I have sweat rolling down my back before I even get in the car in the morning. Despite the fact that I have not even stepped foot outside because the car is parked in the garage.

I’m ready for August to be over.  Then we might finally get a break in this infernal heat.  Maybe.  And maybe then I won’t be so drained just by the simple act of walking from my classroom to the main building.  And maybe we’ll all start sleeping a little better around here.

Because right now? 

Let’s just say that my son needs to stop waking up before our alarm clocks even have a chance to go off.  He consistently wakes up about 10 minutes before the alarms and it’s really throwing me.

I know. I know.” Stop complaining about your child’s sleep habits, Miranda. We’re tired of hearing about it.”

Y’all.  This is ridiculous.

What 17 month old–no, wait–what PERSON in his or her right mind thinks it’s cool and/or okay to wake up at 5:00 a.m. every day?

Not this girl.

I realize that there’s no guarantee I’d be more awake if I actually got to sleep until the alarm, but the thing that I think is making me so tired is how disjointed my nights are.

Joshua’s a fan of waking up once or twice a night.  He just wants to be held for a few minutes and then he’s good to go.  I’m okay with this until I have days like today where I can’t get the temperature in my room right (it’s either too hot or too cold and both make me sleepy) and I want to fall asleep at my desk during my planning period. Despite the fact that I’ve had two travel mugs of coffee and a Diet Pepsi.   

(I seriously contemplated putting my head down today but I was afraid I would’ve been asleep when my next class started coming in.)

I was also starving all day long and I adjusted my weight in Livestrong.com and lost about 60 calories a day that I can eat!  Knowing that I couldn’t eat those 60 calories just made me want MORE food. So then I was just cranky all day long.

So, today has not been a great Tuesday for me.  I’m tired. I’m hungry. I’m sweating. And I’m going to sleep in the hopes that tomorrow will be better.  Or that the weekend will just get here soon.