This year I:
- Survived a hellish second year of teaching.
- Finished a Master’s Degree and became the most educated person in my family.
- Took a lovely, relaxing vacation with my husband and best friends.
- Read a few great books.
- Watched my little brother graduate as Valedictorian of his senior class.
- Found out I was going to be a mommy and then found out that my son is healthy and thriving.
It doesn’t seem like much, and maybe it hasn’t been a terribly eventful year. In a lot of ways, it’s been quite successful. However, part of me is quite nostalgic about its passing because this is a year of lasts for me instead of firsts.
This is the last year that I can decide to do nothing on my days off. Once Baby arrives, my days will be filled with taking care of him. I can’t stay in my pajamas all day on purpose watching marathons of Rocky or Law & Order.
This year is the last year that it will just be my DH and I. In a few short weeks, Baby will be here and our lives will never be the same. Next Christmas will be geared around what he needs and not what we want. I’m excited about the changes this Baby will bring to our lives, but I’d be lying if I said I’m not afraid. Because I am.
This year has also brought about changes in my group of friends. While a few of us are married and either have children or are expecting them, some of us are not. I can already feel things changing between the “sides” of the group. I worry about how those who are not in the same place as me feel when we’re all together. I know that our friendships, while they won’t end, won’t be the same anymore.
I know that 2009 will bring even more changes, and change isn’t something that I always embrace with open arms. But, I’ll be a good sport because my son’s well-being depends on it.
I’m not sure this post is exactly what I was going for when I set out to write it. Perhaps it’s a sign that I should pay more attention to what’s happening in my life so that I can be more nostalgic.