Just Be

I’m in several groups for bloggers on Facebook. One is about being courageous “earners,” bloggers, men and women, who aren’t afraid to state their worth and go for it. Whatever it is.

The gauntlet has been thrown with this month’s challenge.

Be.

Be what?

Be me. Be what I am. Do something that helps me be: successful, peaceful, able, aware. Whatever.

I was hesitant to join this group at first because this blog? Not a moneymaker. Not in the way that mommy blogger who made the Internet rounds last week wants people to believe blogs are.

Blogs can be lucrative. Mine? Meh. It’s mine. The ads around here pay for hosting and Hulu. I realized a long time ago I was okay with that and really, I’m totally okay with that.

But that doesn’t mean I can’t still be a courageous “earner.” That I don’t still belong in that group. I can “earn” things that aren’t money, so the topic for the month really struck a chord with me as I watched Brandi’s video entry.

I can earn peace of mind, contentment, satisfaction, and comfort from the things I do in this online space. I can expand my own horizons and grow myself instead of my bank account. In order to continue giving to others, I have to give to myself.

I have to BE.

Maybe that’s settling in with a nice glass of wine, like I am right now. Maybe that’s taking a walk. Or writing more often.

God, I miss writing. I miss it so much but I feel so lost for time all the time and after years of this feeling, I still haven’t figured out how to make it a priority when so many other things are higher up on the list.

The second piece of the challenge is to do that something every.single.day. My gut says that’s writing. Every day. Without fail.

I will fail.

I’m human and I know myself. I will do well for a few days, forget, remember, be, forget again, feel guilty, try to be more intentionally, and then the month will be over.

So then, why begin at all?

Because sometimes we need the reminder that it’s okay to be imperfect. It’s okay to be ourselves.

It’s okay to just be.