• Skip to primary navigation
  • Skip to main content
  • Skip to primary sidebar
  • Skip to footer

Caffeine and Cabernet

Life from 9 to wine

  • Home
  • About
    • Contact
    • Privacy Policy
  • Life
    • Motherhood
    • In the News
    • Fashion & Beauty
  • Arts & Crafts
    • DIY
    • Printables
  • Entertainment
    • Television
    • Movies
    • Music
    • Atlanta-Area Attractions
  • Recipes

Dear Joshua, On Your First Day of Kindergarten

August 4, 2014 by Miranda Leave a Comment

Dear Joshua,

Today you started Kindergarten. I always fret and worry about you and big changes in your life, and man, this year is going to bring a few of those.

IMG_5565-1

Kindergarten feels like such a big deal, a much bigger deal than any change we’ve weathered so far.

You feel so big and yet so small to me right now, in some sort of space in between.

Part of me wants to protect that smallness because your innocent and sweet spirit feels tied up in that. That’s probably silly. Oh well. Then I guess I’m silly.

IMG_5567-1

I cried last night while talking to your dad about Kindergarten and what a momentous occasion this feels like. See, I’m a worrier. It’s kind of a thing I do when I know that change has to happen and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. The worry doesn’t stop the fact that things are changing, but I do it anyway.

I hope that I’ve been a positive enough force in your life for the past five years so that you make good choices. In friends, in schoolwork, in everything. I worry that I haven’t been, which says way more about me and my insecurities than about you, so there I go again being silly.

Deep down, I know that you are the embodiment of everything good in me and your dad. (And some of the not so good things, too, like that impatient streak of yours…) I know that you’ll be okay and that we’ve done alright and I’ll keep working on it and hoping for it just the same.

Short on time? Save this post for later.

No more lost tabs, random screenshots, or digging through your browser history. Save this post and do future-you a favor.

(It's like a bookmark, but...not.)

Because one thing I know is that you’re about to encounter all sorts of different people, with different ideas about the world and how to live in it. I know that you’re going to hear things I’m not ready for you to hear. I know that people are going to be mean just because they can be that way.

I want none of those things for you and know that they are inevitable.

I know that one day we won’t be the center of your world. That’s inevitable, too.

I know you’re about to get your heart broken, your feelings hurt, and sometimes you will have a terrible, horrible, no good, really bad day. I will fix it with ice cream or popsicles or snuggles for as long as you’ll let me.

I know that you are going to make mistakes as you grow and learn and navigate this world.

I know that I’m going to love you anyway. Always and forever.

Love, Mama

IMG_5573-1

P.S. Please be nice to your sister. She is, after all, one of your best friends.

IMG_5581-1

Filed Under: Joshua, Motherhood

Previous Post: « First Day of Kindergarten (Free Printable!)
Next Post: Invisible Loss »

Reader Interactions

Comments

  1. John (Daddy Runs a Lot) says

    August 6, 2014 at 10:24 am

    I cannot believe he’s old enough to be a Kindergartner! And yes, Joshua, be nice to your sister.

    Reply

Leave a Reply Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Primary Sidebar

Hi! Nice to meet you!

Let's Connect

That’s me! 👇

a photo of a woman wearing glasses and a blue top in front of a book shelf

I’ve been spilling words onto the internet since 2003. Get to know me here.

Looking for Something?

Footer

Caffeine and Cabernet is a participant in the Amazon Associates, LLC Affiliate Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means for sites to earn fees by advertising and linking to Amazon.com.

Copyright © 2025 · Foodie Pro Theme on Genesis Framework · WordPress · Log in