I’m feeling better today. Much better, actually.
I cried. And I cried. And I cried. And I said, through tears, how I thought I was no good at being Joshua’s mother. And I cried some more.
And then I went to a book signing for the new Body Farm novel and heard an interesting lecture by a fascinating man and went out to dinner with a friend. (And I also managed to go out to lunch with a friend, buy a new dress, and get in a nap yesterday, so today, with a clearer mind, I have no idea WHY I was in such a state yesterday. As much as I hate this excuse, it has to be hormone-related. HAS to be. My third AF post-baby is due any minute now and BOY is she wreaking havoc on my endocrine system.)
I felt a little more human when I went to sleep last night.
And then Joshua slept all night long.
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(and I’m going to blog about why I think he did that in a bit. Trust me. You moms will want to hear this.)
And when he woke up this morning at 5:30, he drank a bottle (SHUSH WITH THE JUDGING. Yes, he still gets a bottle.) and went back to sleep for three more hours. Or close to three more hours.
And the snot seems to be a little more under control this morning. A little bit. But he’s got a cough now, so I’m hoping that nothing bad is settling in.
But he slept all night, so that’s worth something.
And I’m feeling much, much better today. It’s amazing what a full night’s sleep can do for a person’s sanity and clarity.
I just got the first full night's sleep in over a week too, and I agree, it's amazing how much more human I feel.
Mine still gets bottles too…
Glad you are feeling better!!! And no judging with the bottle. Had Em not been willing to go off of them, she would still be on them. She just happened to be ready when we were!
Sometimes we just get into a "mommy funk". You're doing a great job and I'm glad you're feeling better. Sleep can work wonders for your psyche, although it might take a full weeks worth of sleep to put a dent in the perma under eye bags I'm sporting.
Sleep works wonders, and so do tears. My kiddo still gets a bottle, but he's 10 months. An empty bottle is his version of a pacifier, so I always put him to bed with one. I have no idea when we'll be able to break this habit, but I'd love for it to be by his first birthday. I won't be surprised if it doesn't happen, though. No judging here! Being a mom is tough enough without all the judging.