I think I’m depressed.
I don’t know why or what has caused it, but it has come out of the middle of nowhere and has left me feeling completely irritated and frustrated with everyone and everything.
The pregnancy is going superbly. I really don’t think I could ask for an easier time with this. So, I don’t think it’s anything with the pregnancy that’s making me feel this way (aside from that minor freakout about the nursery).
I just feel all “blah” and unmotivated. It’s really just got me down.
Part of it is Christmas. I don’t know what to ask for and I don’t know what to get other people. And, I don’t know how we’re going to pay for it since I’m so reluctant to spend any money right now. I need to just break down and go shopping, but Dan always has to freaking work on the weekends which means I have to go alone. And we know how I hate doing things alone. I hate being alone, and I really feel alone right now.
If you’re a praying person, please pray that this passes. I hate feeling like this and not really being able to do anything about it.
Saturday 13th of December 2008
I'll be praying for you my girl!