Welcome back to State of the Weight Wednesday! This week we’re adding a link-up to the bottom so if you’re following along on your own and want to add a link to your post, please do so that we can all offer support. We’re all in this together. Whatever this is for you.
This week I’m…whatever…to report absolutely no changes at all. Not in the number on the scale and not in measurements that I took last week and this week to compare.
To be honest, it’s kind of discouraging. And this has been the hardest week so far so I’m kind of struggling mentally with where I am and how the week went and seeing no change.
I started tracking my food, water, and exercise on the MyPlate app last Wednesday. I actually didn’t find that to be the hard part at all. Tracking, that is. It was pretty easy to just go in at each meal and find out how much I was putting into my body in order to know where I was for the day. It was also revealing.
I’ve got to do something about my coffee but I’m not ready to switch to drinking it black nor am I a fan of artificial sweeteners. Agave has more calories than sugar and I’m not sure about the flavor of honey in coffee. I don’t know what the answer is.
I didn’t stick to the daily recommended intake allowance on Saturday and Sunday since it was Mother’s Day, but I didn’t blow everything out of the water either. And if you subscribe to the notion that the entire week’s intake is more important than a single day, which I do, I really did a great job for my first week of tracking and being responsible about what I ate and I’m proud of that.
I measured portions with a scale or scoop when I was unsure instead of just eyeballing. I planned healthy meals with lean meats and lots of veggies. I ate more fruits instead of crackers or pretzels. Small changes that make differences.
Through the Livestrong community, I also discovered that I might be overestimating my activity level, so I changed that in my profile yesterday morning and lost some daily calories. That made me grumpy.
Dieting is making me grumpy. Sluggish. Short-fused. I don’t like it. I know that part of this is the adjustment process. That my body has to find its new “normal.” But guys, this? This is hard.
I’m not giving up even though I really want to drown my sorrows in a bowl of ice cream with a side of Pinot right now, but this is hard.
Exercise continues to plague me because I can’t be as consistent as I’d like to be. Inevitably, one of the kids has an issue and I’m called away. Last Wednesday Joshua got physical with another kid and I had to “escort him out” after only 12 minutes. Saturday was short because I didn’t know what time childcare closed and we walked in at 5:15 when they close at 6:00. Monday Emma pooped after 30 minutes. It’s always something.
The number of calories I’m burning each time I exercise is all over the place depending on what I consult. The machine says one thing and the app says another. The truth is probably somewhere in the middle, but I have no idea how to actually measure that and don’t know if I should even worry about it. I mean, is it important that I know how “productive” my workouts are?
I know I have to add weights into my routine. It’s just daunting to think about. Probably as daunting as anything I’ve done so far. Cardio on the elliptical is safe. I can zone out while watching Claire have a baby and Boone die after Jack gives him a blood transfusion with a sea urchin (RIP, BOONE!) and before I know it, 45 minutes is gone.
I can’t do that with the weights. I have to pay attention to what I’m doing but what it feels like is that everyone else is paying attention to me. I know that’s irrational and that no one is likely to even notice the fact that I’m there, but there’s something about that side of the gym that feels like a spotlight is shining on me going “LOOK! LOOK AT THIS GIRL WHO HAS NO IDEA WHAT SHE’S DOING! LOOK AT HER MUFFIN TOP AND FLABBY ARMS!”
Gah. Sorry to sound so discouraging right now. I know that I’m doing something good for us so that keeps me going but there are just some weeks on this journey that are going to be harder than others. And since this is about being real, I guess I’m okay with that. I hope you are too.
Weekly Goal: Continue to track food and plan healthy, filling meals and snacks so I’m not so freaking grumpy
Weight Goal: 10 pounds total. A pesky .5 pound to go.
Remember we’ve got a link-up now, so, uh, link up. (Share the badge if you want! It’s okay. I don’t mind!) 🙂
Julia
Thursday 16th of May 2013
Frustrating! Sounds like you are a member of LA Fitness (not a stalker, also in Atlanta). Most have first time personal training intro sessions as a teaser to get you so sign up for more for free. A lot of times, you get one a year. I wish I could give you mine! If you are LAF, and want a few pointers, I'm by no means an expert but would help you out! Keep going. This is when it gets serious- the quick drops are had and the nitty gritty sets in. You can do it! Keep going! Staying the same isn't backwards!
Alena
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
You have to keep in mine, you'll see results from last week next week. It isn't instant. It takes time for your body to adjust, especially where exercise is involved! Just keep going! If you are doing right, and eating right, and eating less calories...you will see results!
Miranda
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
Oh, I'll keep going. I feel better when I work out, so I know it's doing good things for me. I just wish I weren't starving right now while my body gets used to not being full of crap all the time.
Ann @ Such a Mama
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
I know these weeks, all too well. If it is any help, you inspired me to get back on the bandwagon! I am day 3 of no carbs! My husband and I had both gone no/low carb after my son was born and I lost a ton of weight. When I got pregnant again, I needed to eat crackers... and ice cream... and then I was bfing and could eat a horse at every meal. I am counting down the days until I stop pumping at work and that will be a big impact on my body. So here we go!
Miranda
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
See, I'm also still breastfeeding, less now than even 6 months ago, but still. Emma nurses probably 5 times a day. I am hungry all.the.time. right now. And not for healthy things.
Good for you for hopping back on the bandwagon!! I can't wait to see what kind of changes you see in the coming weeks!
John (Daddy Runs a Lot)
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
Speaking as someone who has "been there," you're at a crucial stage. You're right on the cusp of turning your new habits into a routine . . . with any luck, if you just stick through logging what you're doing and working out when you can, it will become second nature for you. Even if you gain next week, as long as you're honest about intake and activity level, you're golden. I promise. It gets easier.
For the weights - yeah, you need to. If I saw you at the gym (other than thinking "holy shit, it's Miranda! Hi Miranda" and then talking your ear off . . . I'm speaking as some random guy who either does or doesn't know what he's doing in the weight room -- and there are more of us who are just winging it than you could possibly know), if I did actually notice you, it would be "cool, there need to be more women who don't only focus on cardio." I'd think that, twice, if you pulled up and started doing barbell squats and bench presses. But I know that getting those voices out of your head is next to impossible.
Have you given thought to the 7 minute workout (http://lifehacker.com/these-12-videos-show-the-proper-form-for-a-7-minute-ful-499199366)? It's a pretty good way to work your muscles that's devoid of most of the "fear" of hurting yourself with weights and can be done in your own home.
Miranda
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
First, thank you for being so freaking helpful and kind. Second, I can do anything for 7 minutes, so I'll be checking out that link you posted.
I know the "everyone is staring at me" is totally all in my head. Logically, rationally, I know that. I hate that this is something that is so daunting for me, particularly since I'm not really the kind of person who backs away from a challenge.
This really is becoming a habit. I get sad when I can't go or when a session is interrupted. I know that this is a good thing for me as the point was to want to be there. So, there's a baby step.
becca @ sewLOVED
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
Dude, when it comes to weights, I AM clueless. I'm thankful my husband goes to the gym at the same time so that he can help me figure some of those machines out. But, BUT, neither of us had a clue what to do until a friend suggested a website to us. They have tons of free plans; there's a beginner workout for women even! They also show detailed instructions on what you're doing which I find completely helpful. And if you have your phone on you at the gym, just step aside and look to see what you're doing next. Hope that helps!
http://www.weighttraining.com/workout-plans
P.S. Why can't the daycare at the gym change Emma? That's so bizarre and I hate that it interrupts your workout!
Miranda
Wednesday 15th of May 2013
I will definitely be checking out that link and those plans. I can't afford regular sessions with a trainer right now so I will have to create them for myself.
I'm not sure why their policy is that they won't change diapers, but they won't. They page you and lots of parents just come down, change the diaper, and go back. One day I will probably be able to do that, but that day is not right now. If I go in to change her diaper, I better be prepared to take her home because there's not really any leaving and coming back and then leaving again.